random thoughts and updates June 4, 2008

first of all, i must warn you – this has been a very long day at work and i am totally worn out. therefore, i may either fall asleep while typing or, better yet, it will make less sense as it progresses. anyways, my last post was a bit on the depressing side so i thought i’d bring more happy thoughts to the table today.

last thursday, i got word that a bunch of my friends were going camping over the weekend. i was very excited to hear this because i had been wanting to go camping so badly. so i got all the details and headed up to cove lake state park after i got off work on friday. it was a very relaxing weekend yet full of fun. i was very proud of the fire i built saturday evening after it rained and got all of our wood and paper wet (no accelerant was used in the building of said fire). we didn’t really do a lot other than sit around and talk and go to the pool. it was nice and i want to do it again…soon!

today when i pulled into the apartment complex, i stopped to check my mail as i do almost everyday. i was surprised to see a letter from one of my neighbors here at my apt. complex. it was address to “my new neighbor” and after a minute or so i realized it was from the lady that lives upstairs, right above me, with her husband and two kids. inside the envelope was an invitation! it’s basically a get-to-know-your-neighbor thing with an invitation to come over, have coffee, and chat. this brightened my day! this woman actually took time to make these invitations (the are super cute and look handmade), go to the post office, and mail this invitation…when i live downstairs! i was very impressed by all this! most people, including myself, would probably just walk down the steps and tape a note on the door…or just keep to themselves and not take make any effort to get to know the neighbors (like me). on a side note, i have met this family about a month ago or so. i was coming home from work one day when they were just outside their door and we chatted for a few minutes. she apologized for her son (5 y/o) and his frequent running, jumping, and throwing himself on the floor (our floor/ceilings are VERY thin here) and then he told me himself that he was sorry (although it continues to this day). in two years of living by myself, these are the first neighbors that i have actually met. seriously. actually, when i lived in kingston, i did meet the man that lived up above me…only because i locked myself out one night and needed to use his phone. i could ramble on forever but the main point of this was the simple invitation i received. so simple yet it said so much. just to know that someone out there wants to get to know me…it made my day! now, i doubt that i’ll be sending out my own get-to-know-you invitations but i want to bring others the simple joy of a personal letter. i am going to try to send little notes of encouragement to my friends and co-workers. you can never have too much love.

i was halfway watching the price is right a little while ago. one of the first contests, a girl, NOT a blonde, was wearing a shirt that said “drew is gorges.” come on, people! you have to be at least 18 to be a contestant on that show. being 18 years old and not knowing how to spell gorgeous is just sad. stay in school!

let’s just be honest about something here. in my “about me” section, there is a sentence that states “i am single and enjoy it most of the time.” what this should really say is “i am single and cope with it most of the time.” i don’t really enjoy being single and being all by myself in this crazy world. don’t get me wrong, i know i’m not alone – i have plenty of family and friends that care about me. but i want more. as i mentioned in a previous post, most of my friends have families of their own. i want a family of my own. sometimes i go on craiglist and browse the personals. most of the time, i go to “missed connections” dreaming that someday i will go there and find that someone has seen me out in the community and wants to get to know me more. it hasn’t happened yet. i also look at the “men seeking women” section which consists of just that. most of these guys are looking for a real relationship, not a one night stand. let me just clear the air by saying that i am not in any way looking for a one night stand. not even looking for a physical relationship. i’d prefer to start as friends. i honestly don’t know that i know how to date. i haven’t had a “boyfriend” since high school and it’s been 3 years since i’ve even been on a date. i went on a few dates in college but none of those guys were second date material. i browse these personals but never respond. i almost feel like (in my mind) there’s a stigma surrounding online dating. i have no idea why, though. when i was younger, i chatted with people (guys) online all the time and even met a few of them. maybe that’s it. maybe i’m afraid that if i get to know someone online, i will have certain expectations and then after meeting them in person, will be let down. i don’t know.

ok, that’s all for now folks. if you’ve kept up with me this far, thanks for reading!